Kissing 2013 Goodbye..

It's astonishing how time flies fast... just yesterday I was this girl spending her Saturday nights on her laptop, writing songs and whining about.. wait that's still me.. anyhow.. my point is that time flies by so fast, and promises are being unkept, people change, you meet new people, lives take whole different twists and this is how life is supposed to go on..
There are so many things that happened to me this year that I wouldn't have enough paper to pour it on so my blog will be the victim of the night..
This year has been full of ups and downs, I got to meet so many amazing people that put me back in place, if this is making any sense at all..

..and as everyone at home is either sleeping or trying to sleep and as their thoughts finally stopped spinning, mine were like a gust ravaging my brain.. because there's this flashback of memories happening at this very moment and it's like I can recall every moment of the year, from January 2013 when I was in Germany and was dying over the German french fries to the summer of 2013, which was magical and amazing since I got to meet some pretty cool peeps.. and then there's this less upbeat reminiscing part, where I'm recalling when my sister left.. but it's okay.. I think that I finally realized that all of this is part of life and that sometimes not feeling okay and then angry and then throwing your phone across the room is actually okay..

One of the many things I can recall is when I started this blog and how 'Invisible Girl' was (and still is) my signature and how self-criticizing was my thing.. all of this seems like a million years ago while it was half a year ago.. Now, I've finally found myself, I think and I have learned some pretty awesome lessons, which I will list..

• Never be afraid to say how you feel to somebody, either you're mad or angry at them, don't hold back
• It's perfectly fine to give yourself some credits, no need to diminish yourself..
• I shouldn't be afraid to tell people that I write.. 
• Don't expect anything from anyone, that way you'll live happier.

..there are others that I can't quite recall but I know that I will, probably during my writing process, oh there is one, I learnt that sometimes things go out of control and categorizing my thoughts into things that can be changed and cannot be changed can be really helpful considering that I'm a control freak. Moreover, I learnt that writing about people who hurt you is totally cool and definitely not creepy because I basically wrote a song about each person who ever hurt me.. which I, maybe, should work on..

.. 2013 is soon about to disappear and become a vague memory and I'd be lying if I said that 2014 isn't scaring the living crap out of me because it actually is.. it's paralyzing me in an agonizing way.. oh look at me using hyperboles (again).. I just feel such a bittersweet feeling while writing this post and there are so many people I wish I could share my happiness with but I guess that they're too busy to talk and although I feel like I'm losing them, this is not the point of this post.. 

If I had to talk about my goals, my first one is to stop being a 'lightweight'.. emotionally..

People tend to think that kissing goodbye can be tough and that letting go of old things can be hard and getting over it is nearly impossible, but what they forget is that by letting go, so many wonderful things can happen, you never know, it can be right in the corner.. Isn't it just amazing how oblivious it is?

.. and as I'm kissing 2013 goodbye, I'm kissing the world goodbye since I'm feeling happy.. and foggy and anxious and my brain is just telling to me to shut it all down and go to bed.. which I'm already in.. maybe that my brain actually does need some few hours..

Goodnight beautiful world...