As far I'm concerned, 2013 has been an oddly normal year to me yet it utterly changed my life and it took a totally different twist.. so many things happened this year.. many songs were written, which means that my heart was wounded but they're slowly but surely healing, I met people, I let them in, I let them go afterwards.. I had ups and downs...
...but this year, I've finally found who I am and what I wanted to be.. but most of all, I learned to be myself, or at least I'm still learning how to, but it all seems to be heading towards the right decision..
I feel like 2013 is such an ambiguous year, I feel like it lasted forever yet it flew by so fast.. if this year was a play, it would be divided in two acts.. first act : Princess in distress, dying and longing to finally get out of the dark, finding that one thing that will enlighten her.. and the second act : Cinderella finally finds herself, except that there was no prince charming, nowhere near but let's just assume that she was a modern princess who doesn't need anyone to rely on.. well not anymore..
As we're all approaching the dreadful end of 2013, I can't help myself but wonder what were my greatest moments... and somehow, my mind was blocking.. something was keeping, as if I had lost the key that usually unlocks my mind... which happens quite often, I guess..
2013.. four numbers that contain so many memories, so many laughs and many tears, many losses and many people that I've met..
..and I'm still quite unsure how I'm supposed to feel regarding this year finally leaving.. Did I bond with a year? was it even logical? My mind was definitely not thinking straight and I had definitely lost the key, which I hopefully will find by the end of the day.. ish.
Now that I'm finally combing back through my memory and reminiscing, 2013 has been such a great year, even though I've been fighting a lot with my best friend that the people I thought were there for me, weren't actually there, it's just a part of life and I finally learnt to embrace it.. but let's stay all positive and in the spirit of celebrating, shall we...
Only 2 hours and fifteen minutes left before we leave this era and walk into a brand new one, hoping that everything will go perfectly fine and that the joy and laughter and ups will overcome the downs... and kick them in the ass.
...I cannot believe that I'm ending this year on a fight with my best friend and sister.. can it get any better? I'm not even going to talk about it.
If I had to make any resolutions this year it would be :
-To stop talking to myself in voice-over because it really seems to creep out people.
-To stop the self-doubt once and for all, although it seems to be fading away.. slowly but surely..
-To stop expecting from people, because expectations lead to pure disappointments, which I don't have the time to deal with.
-To be more nice to people and just be good to them because during my tumultuous quest in life, and after taking the decision to be mean, I finally realized that being mean is not going to get rid of my 'being too fragile' issues.. so I'll keep on being nice to people because it's such an AMAZING and INCREDIBLE legacy to feel behind, isn't it?
There were some other 'plausible' resolutions such as 'stopping the whole over-thinking and over-analyzing' but I surely won't keep because I simply am not like that and that changing myself would probably lead to this 'Princess hitting the wall.. and ending unconscious'
Current mood : Confused.. and dizzy (both literal and figurative ways).. sad because I'm losing a friend at this moment, maybe two.. drifting away from somebody else.. can this year be over. This is the Colossus of bad. I need 2014, not like it something magical would happen... but I guess I could still hope.
Cheesus Crust.
I'll just go and curl up in my bed, in an old ugly (favorite) sweater of mine, and eat junk food for the rest of the night until 2014 comes along and saves me from 2013's paws.
Goodbye 2013, see you.. in never.
Always yours,
Invisible (but really excited and confused) girl.
PS : The new me includes not expecting, I repeat.. NOT expecting. Therefore I do not expect any of your sympathy. Have a wonderful new year.
Also I thought I'd end this year with me covering this song, which is called 'Breathe'..
"It's two am.. feeling like I just lost a friend, hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me.. and I can't breathe without you, but I have to" http://vocaroo.com/i/s0svztYHfOhS
...but this year, I've finally found who I am and what I wanted to be.. but most of all, I learned to be myself, or at least I'm still learning how to, but it all seems to be heading towards the right decision..
I feel like 2013 is such an ambiguous year, I feel like it lasted forever yet it flew by so fast.. if this year was a play, it would be divided in two acts.. first act : Princess in distress, dying and longing to finally get out of the dark, finding that one thing that will enlighten her.. and the second act : Cinderella finally finds herself, except that there was no prince charming, nowhere near but let's just assume that she was a modern princess who doesn't need anyone to rely on.. well not anymore..
As we're all approaching the dreadful end of 2013, I can't help myself but wonder what were my greatest moments... and somehow, my mind was blocking.. something was keeping, as if I had lost the key that usually unlocks my mind... which happens quite often, I guess..
2013.. four numbers that contain so many memories, so many laughs and many tears, many losses and many people that I've met..
..and I'm still quite unsure how I'm supposed to feel regarding this year finally leaving.. Did I bond with a year? was it even logical? My mind was definitely not thinking straight and I had definitely lost the key, which I hopefully will find by the end of the day.. ish.
Now that I'm finally combing back through my memory and reminiscing, 2013 has been such a great year, even though I've been fighting a lot with my best friend that the people I thought were there for me, weren't actually there, it's just a part of life and I finally learnt to embrace it.. but let's stay all positive and in the spirit of celebrating, shall we...
Only 2 hours and fifteen minutes left before we leave this era and walk into a brand new one, hoping that everything will go perfectly fine and that the joy and laughter and ups will overcome the downs... and kick them in the ass.
...I cannot believe that I'm ending this year on a fight with my best friend and sister.. can it get any better? I'm not even going to talk about it.
If I had to make any resolutions this year it would be :
-To stop talking to myself in voice-over because it really seems to creep out people.
-To stop the self-doubt once and for all, although it seems to be fading away.. slowly but surely..
-To stop expecting from people, because expectations lead to pure disappointments, which I don't have the time to deal with.
-To be more nice to people and just be good to them because during my tumultuous quest in life, and after taking the decision to be mean, I finally realized that being mean is not going to get rid of my 'being too fragile' issues.. so I'll keep on being nice to people because it's such an AMAZING and INCREDIBLE legacy to feel behind, isn't it?
There were some other 'plausible' resolutions such as 'stopping the whole over-thinking and over-analyzing' but I surely won't keep because I simply am not like that and that changing myself would probably lead to this 'Princess hitting the wall.. and ending unconscious'
Current mood : Confused.. and dizzy (both literal and figurative ways).. sad because I'm losing a friend at this moment, maybe two.. drifting away from somebody else.. can this year be over. This is the Colossus of bad. I need 2014, not like it something magical would happen... but I guess I could still hope.
Cheesus Crust.
I'll just go and curl up in my bed, in an old ugly (favorite) sweater of mine, and eat junk food for the rest of the night until 2014 comes along and saves me from 2013's paws.
Goodbye 2013, see you.. in never.
Always yours,
Invisible (but really excited and confused) girl.
PS : The new me includes not expecting, I repeat.. NOT expecting. Therefore I do not expect any of your sympathy. Have a wonderful new year.
Also I thought I'd end this year with me covering this song, which is called 'Breathe'..
"It's two am.. feeling like I just lost a friend, hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me.. and I can't breathe without you, but I have to" http://vocaroo.com/i/s0svztYHfOhS
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