I believe that someone once told me that our feelings are always valid no matter what. No matter what they might be, or no matter what kind of shape or pattern they come as. I'm sitting right now, and reflecting on my emotions and feelings right now. Or at least I think that I'm doing so, but I'm exhausted to such a point that I don't think I could be objective at all.
I feel like there's a tornado of thoughts ravaging my brain and as my fingertips press each key on the keyboard, I feel some kind of relief very deep inside of me. I just need to get those feelings on my chest and so I have betrayed my guitar and took the (erratic?) decision to pour my soul into a blog instead on chords and lyrics. I actually did two days ago and the lyrics are pretty tragic if you had to ask me..
It's a four chord songs and maybe one of my best, the lyrics are very raw and go straight to the point.. "Now I know what you know that I'm not what you wanted, 'cause I see, perfectly, yes I have figured you out this time".. no matter how the lyrics come off, they're really not romantic at all. Or at least, the situation that inspired it wasn't romantic at all. It's about being this person in this relationship that can go so well at times but then all of the sudden all the walls end up being painted in shades of gray and you don't know quite where you're standing.. and some kind of distance starts establishing itself and you don't know what to do. (Unless you're me, you pick up your guitar and write it and then let it go) .. So yes, you decided to stop making all the effort and you simply let go and your heart sort of closes up forever; which match the bridge's lyrics "You will know what I knew that I was everything you should've wanted, you will see perfectly but it'll be too late for that"..
I think it's the exhaustion speaking right now. I just abhor how sometimes all your feelings get magnified all of the sudden and you feel like you can't seem to put your finger on what the issue is.
I just think that I'm going to stop being the kind of person who can't let go. I think that this era I'm in right now will be revolving around me being more independent and being the 'if you say goodbye, I'll be gone forever, no turning back' kinda gal...
Always yours,
-Invisible girl.
I feel like there's a tornado of thoughts ravaging my brain and as my fingertips press each key on the keyboard, I feel some kind of relief very deep inside of me. I just need to get those feelings on my chest and so I have betrayed my guitar and took the (erratic?) decision to pour my soul into a blog instead on chords and lyrics. I actually did two days ago and the lyrics are pretty tragic if you had to ask me..
It's a four chord songs and maybe one of my best, the lyrics are very raw and go straight to the point.. "Now I know what you know that I'm not what you wanted, 'cause I see, perfectly, yes I have figured you out this time".. no matter how the lyrics come off, they're really not romantic at all. Or at least, the situation that inspired it wasn't romantic at all. It's about being this person in this relationship that can go so well at times but then all of the sudden all the walls end up being painted in shades of gray and you don't know quite where you're standing.. and some kind of distance starts establishing itself and you don't know what to do. (Unless you're me, you pick up your guitar and write it and then let it go) .. So yes, you decided to stop making all the effort and you simply let go and your heart sort of closes up forever; which match the bridge's lyrics "You will know what I knew that I was everything you should've wanted, you will see perfectly but it'll be too late for that"..
I think it's the exhaustion speaking right now. I just abhor how sometimes all your feelings get magnified all of the sudden and you feel like you can't seem to put your finger on what the issue is.
I just think that I'm going to stop being the kind of person who can't let go. I think that this era I'm in right now will be revolving around me being more independent and being the 'if you say goodbye, I'll be gone forever, no turning back' kinda gal...
Always yours,
-Invisible girl.
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