Trust, You Shall Not..

Ever since I was a kid, I didn't trust anyone... And I guess it became sort of a pathology while growing up.. I'm not trying to be a drama-queen nor am I trying to make a big deal out of it but it was a fact, every time I had trusted someone and told them a secret, it all came back blowing up on my face..

... Which makes me think that opening to people is never the right choice. Keep your secrets to yourself and you'll live happily and you probably will have the happy ending you were expecting.. and maybe I will have the happy ending that I always wanted and that I'm still expecting... 

I thought that I trusted M when I told her about my secret, and it literally hit me like a train, I felt physically sick and betrayed when she just went out telling about it.. I shouldn't be writing about it right now but... I have to.. Otherwise my head will explode....

Plot twist : she's the one yelling at me because I feel betrayed. What kind of messed up world do we live in? That's just not possible. This sounds illogical and.. STUPID.. utterly stupid..
Despite the many wounds that I was carrying with me, my heart was the one that needed time to heal. And I'm tired of the pain...

I never actually thought that someone this close to me would betray me, it remained just a dream, in an old rusty box where it was supposed to belong... and now my dreams rudely barged into my brain and made my reality its bitch... or maybe this box got opened up and smacked me in the face.. hard.

Does that mean that I shall never trust anyone? Because every ounce of my body is telling me not to... 

I shall never trust anyone.

I can't think straight right now.. I really can't as much as I want to...

Goodnight, beautiful and stinky world.

Always yours,

--Invisible -who is betrayed- girl..